I had a wonderful evening yesterday. My mom graduated from informal bible school and it really meant a lot from her. It was a special night for her that is why even though I hesitated to come to her graduation at our main church, I accompanied her to one of the special event in her life. I was hesitant because I knew I was going to see some church people that have hurt me in the past and I was a bit worried that my anger will emerge once again. I also don’t want to go to our main church because it will remind me of the old days when I was still very much active at the church ministries.

The night turned out alright, I did get to see some of those people and some even extended their hands to greet us. Maybe the wounds are really starting to heal and I know in my heart I have forgiven all of them but I’m not quite sure if I’ll be able to forget just yet and start over again. Leaving God’s ministry was one of the most heartbreaking moments in my life, I never thought I could recover from it but somehow I am keeping my faith that all these shall come to pass and God will help me get through this in time.

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